:) have been reading so much of late (apart from indulging in mooncake and birthday cake delights...oh gosh...)..

And i really am compelled to give an account of the journey He has led me to walk these few weeks-uncounted by the worldly eye, for the world understands naught-from the very time You tore us apart to bring us into the wilderness...and there You sang songs of love...to now. It is, a very strange-and humbling feeling- to be granted the enormous privilege of being revealed the plans You have in mind for the nation, for the school, for the world...for us :) *smile*

Suffice to say..You're blowing my mind, Father..blowing it to smithereens at the magnitude of the work You have started..and You've set my heart to beat in a pace that goes faster than any I've known in response to the urgency of Your work..and I am fearful, and I am thrilled..I am excited too and yet I must be still ..because as much as I know Time holds n0t the menace of its grip on You the Alpha and Omega..the pace..the breathtaking speed You take me to soar upon the strength of Your wings..is a propelling force that causes every bit of my self to gasp in wondrous awe at what one could never achieve by human strength alone..

And that's why I'm fearful. I am but a vapour in the wind, a flower that fades surely as the sun sets..

But still You love me, so much, so fervently..You dance over me and quiet my heart with Your singing when the world tempts me away from whom You've called me to be..when it judges cruelly and I know not its motives..You listen to me patiently when I doubt Your Word and You reassure me..when I run..You pursue with love..filling the empty corridors of a human heart with the restoring melody of love..

..You smile knowingly when I search frantically and then when I least expect it, You appear..showing me You are not to be commanded at my whim(but of course You are the Sovereign Lord) ..and yet wooing me with Your surprises.. granting me strength when I am weak..and ....and...and...

How could anyone not see? How could anyone refuse?

You've bought me over, Father. You've captured my heart, Lord. You're all i want :) All i need :) All i've ever hoped or dreamed of..

"To keep Your lovely face ever before my eyes
This is my prayer
Make it my strong desire
And in my secret heart
No other love competes
No rival throne survives
And i serve only You."

*smile* this little thought overwhelmed me at Jurong East one particular saturday..where life's hectic schedules affected me naught to the point i had to think of what to do..

"I stood on the mrt platform,
Not knowing where I'd go or would have gone.
And then looking at the waiting throng
Suddenly it hit me-as simple as ABC, more beautiful than a song
What all of us thirst for so strong
That His love showering down, keeping no account of wrong,
Has never stopped watching over each precious rebelling creation all along.
My heart soared, my spirit burst forth in glorious form,
Shaped by the truth and power of His love and grace-the very might of our Lord!"

Indeed ne...i do feel deliciously gloriously pampered :):) i just love loving my Father :) And i intend to fall much deeper, deeper in love...I'm not done yet :)